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I'm totally getting bored of it. Yaa~ like everytime i online, facebook - blogging. Got nothing else to do. On second thought, i feel free posting anything here. It's so open when i post anything on the other blog, like sometimes a few people terasa of what i wrote. Hey, get used to it. I'm sorry, i feel better if the feelings get rid by writing or typing or telling it to someone else. Better than i spread rumours. *hey! its not you ok? not related kat studio peeps. :)
Now i'm texting my beloved dear. He's been accompanied me all nights and days, by texting je la. Ok, i admit. I really love him. Hahaha~ this is my first time announce it, proudly, sincerely, faithfully. Wohh.. i know he won't read this. Frankly i want everybody to know that i have a special person like him, but its sure not the perfect time. I broke up with my ex-bf last year, i mean last last year, at the end of chemistry paper (which is the last paper) in SPM. I feel like i was so kejam to break up with him on happy-ending day without a reason. I'm soo sorry. ( done with this. i won't reminisce it anymore. fullstop! )
Pray for me that 'he' will be my endless love. (oh! malu sudah!)
The past is past. Creating better future for me !
Hurm,, i am the eldest in my siblings (tukar topik). I only have 3 siblings including me. The second is my lil bro. Now he's in form 4 and will register at MRSM Taiping this Monday. Last time he successfully graduated from MRSM Pasir Salak, Perak and by his achievement in PMR result, he need to be transferred to MRSM Taiping which is one of the best among other MRSM. Well, fyi, i was a student from MRSM too, Kepala Batas, Penang. The last one is currently study at Sekolah Agama ( religious school ). Fyi, i've been there too! (from form 1 until form 3).
And fyi again, my parents had divorced since i was standard 5. Oh~ i don't feel embarrass to tell you this. Its been .... *counting* .... almost 8 years they separating each other. Not everyone knows this but you guys are like my family now. So you need to know about it. :)
I've gone through devious roads in my life from i was young until now, i'm still standing here, telling you my stories. It's not easy for me to hold on with life. I'm the eldest, so i'm the one who struggling the best for myself on my whole time of growing. I remember the time when i was 6 years old, i already learned to stand on my own feet. I went to kindergarten by myself, waiting for school bus to arrive on early morning. And it keeps on going until i'm on the age of twelve. But looking on my younger siblings' perspective, they went to school by car. Not so pathetic but can you see the difference?
I am kinda obey to my parents so much. On my young days, i always disuruh to go buy some kitchen stuffs. I walked alone to Giant, the distance is like from studio to pakguard's. Brought home 5kg's of rice and the other hand for other things. Imagine, a small kid walks alone, anything can happen! Thank God nobody kidnap me. Besides, I always acting like I am a boy. I rather act like a boy than being a girl, for my safety thou. But my younger sibling's don't feel the experience of walking alone, bring heavy things along far distance to home and bla bla bla. It seems unfair. Sometimes i feel sad of the unfair-ness. Like until now, mama is more to them. She's not attending my last year graduation because of no money to go Penang. Tears falling when i saw other peoples' parents can attend to the event by bus. It is once in a lifetime event okey? Then i invited her for the portfolio last year but she won't come, same reason : no money, tak tau jalan. But then she can go to my brother's graduation day. How bad you feel if you were in my shoes? Relieved when abah came with his family. See? It is obviously unfair, tortures me a lot. Luckily i've been taught to keep holding on in most situations. Thank God, i'm grateful for who i am. I love my mama a lot, really. She is a strong superhuman, seriously! Thank God again, i got a mother like mama. She's letting go of her husband for the woman he loved. And then she raised us alone, without a man beside her. She's my dad, she's my mom, she's my hero.
Wahh,, like i can make these an essay maa~ :D
Hmm.. i think better i'm off now. I'll continue later. Sorry for the wrongdoings in this post; the grammar, the wrong words i used and sorry if you don't understand in single word i said, at least i try. :)
Till then ! :D
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